East Timor:  Genocide in Paradise 
By Matthew Jardine 
Introduction by Noam Chomsky 

I was in high school when the war started. I had no political ties, didn't belong to any party. My friends and I were forced to join the Indonesian army. None of us wanted to, but if we didn't, we would have been killed. 

 I went on operations to kill other Timorese, ordinary people. I felt strange—none of us felt good. But after two or three years, it was easy.  You get used to killing. 

  I was forced to kill my best friend. I don't want to talk about it; I don't feel good when I think about it. They knew he was my friend so they forced me to shoot him. They do these things to test you.